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Are You Happy?
Another year passes byand I’m not sure whyI’m filled with trepidation for something I’ve done twenty five times beforeyet I’m still worried with every torn calendar page that I don’t know what I’m doing anymoreI struggle to see the pointI fail to please myselfI don’t care to know the laundry list of those I’ve disappointed…
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Stream of Emotional Consciousness
It’s nearly eleven PM on October 9th, 2022. I’ve been home from work for about two hours and I’m listening to Bon Iver’s ‘For Emma, Forever Ago’ as I sit in my office in isolation from my wife and daughter in the living room to try and give my head a moment to decompress and…
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Early Winter Albums
I have been working on the follow up to my poetry collection, ‘The Rubble Before Us’, for about three years now. Rubble was written in an intense period of my life between 2016 and 2017, when everything felt like it was in flux – I was graduating high school, I had exited my first long…
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Olivia (Drowning on Land)
OliviaWith your stained glass cheeksWhen we’re aloneMy knees grow weakI can hardly breatheYou’re in my dreamsI can be anyone you want me to beYou can share my cigaretteAnd we can dance with our silhouetteOh OliviaYou’re the only one I can’t forget OliviaWith your seashell smileAt the sound of your untamed laughI’m suddenly just a childNo…
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existence.
When Ben Gibbard said that ‘love is watching someone die’I wondered if that included metaphoricallyBecause if so then I’ve seen too many people diePurely hypothetically Including myselfIf that makes it betterI’ve known so many people that I love or have loved or hold some kind of emotional connection to them still for reasons I’m still not…